“With Aiman ssi?” Onew asked.
“Aniyo, what are you talking about hyung-nim?” Minho just said it while facing
to the other side trying to avoid eye contact. Onew just replied “Mm… okay” and
left the room. “Why is my heart beating really fast when hyung-nim mentioned
Aiman’s name?” Minho questioned himself while analyzing the book. He kept
remembering the moment when he was in the car with Aiman earlier. He was
driving along the road and realized that Aiman already fell asleep. Suddenly,
he spoke “Are you asleep Aiman ssi?” he just whispers not wanting to
wake her up from her deep sleep because he knew she was tired filming the whole
day. He just giggled and said “Kyeopta (so cute)”
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I rose up from bed and it was
already noon. I guess I was so tired from yesterday, I overslept. I remembered
receiving a message from Syaoran last night but because I was too tired to even
lift a finger I didn’t reply right away. I checked my phone again and there was
another message saying “I’m sorry for texting you suddenly last night. I
knew you were already asleep as you didn’t reply my message. So, I’m just texting
you again to tell you that I’ll be waiting at the café this evening” I
realized that if I were too late I just might not get to see him again. There
was a chaos at that time as I was trying every clothes that I had to dress up
nicely to meet with Syaoran later on. I arrived at the café just in time. I
guess I was a bit early because he wasn’t there yet. I waited for him to show
up. He came and sat down. “Syaoran, I’m really grateful for your gift. So, I
wanted to th…” Suddenly, he stopped me and spoke. “Aiman ssi, to be honest. It
wasn’t me who gave you that teddy bear” as soon as I heard that from his mouth,
I took aback and stuttered a bit. “Oh… re-really? But Minho said…” Then, I
realized something. Even on the letter that came with the teddy bear, it didn’t
mention from whom. “Well, if you’re saying that it wasn’t you I guess it was
someone else then” I said with a bit of disappointment. “Actually, I wanted to
tell you the unspoken words from before were…” Somehow I didn’t think that
those words “I like you” from the dream would be the words that are
coming out of his mouth. I was really hoping Minho would show up and stop this
madness. I knew I just have to accept the consequences. “The unspoken words
from before were, even if I’m not around, there would always be someone to love
and care you when I’m gone and that someone is Minho hyung” It totally ruin my
fantasy and felt like crying at that very moment but when he mentioned Minho’s
name, my tears were hold aback. “I knew that you had a heart for me but I don’t
deserve that. Maybe you don’t realize it but at that time, there was someone else
who had a stronger love for you than I did. Right now, I really hope that you
can see him carrying his love for you” I didn’t know what to do next but just
stare into his eyes and yes. He’s telling the truth. “All this while, I thought
you were the one but it turns out it was only a one-sided love” I felt difficult
saying those words because it felt like there was a huge lump stuck in my
throat. “It’s not too late for that one-sided love to be complete” Those were
the last words I ever heard from him. The REAL last words. He stood up and left
me at the café alone with my sadness to accompany me. As soon as he exited out
of the café, I started to shed tears. It felt like it was raining and my tears
just keep falling until there were dry. A call came, it was Minho. I just
couldn’t answer it because he might only hear me crying than me talking. After
I regain myself, I called him back. Hoping he wouldn’t hear me sobbing but it
seems he was smarter than what I thought. “Aiman ssi, waeyo (what’s wrong)?
Are you okay? Why are you crying? Did someone made you cry?” Instantly my
heart stopped beating. Those questions are the exact same questions he asked me
7 years ago. At that moment I just wished he was there with me to comfort me.
For that few seconds, I thought. Maybe I need to open my heart again for him? I
felt my willing to help him get his memories back became stronger “Where are
you?” he asked “I’m at the cinema. I’m watching a sad movie” I said trying
to cover up. “I’ll just call you later then” Minho said “No!” I didn’t
want him to just hang up. I feel that I still need to hear his voice a bit
longer to ease my pain. “It’s okay, just tell me why you called” “I want to
invite you to din… I mean, I wanted to give back your book. You left it in the
car last night. I’ll text you the place and time” I decided to take that
chance to tell him everything about our past.
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We met that night at the place
where he wanted to meet. It was a restaurant just at the corner of the town. Of
course he reserved a private room so that no one could recognize him as Minho
from SHINee. I entered the room and it was just beautiful with a chandelier on
top and the table was decorated just nice. He stood up from his seat, pulled
out my chair and I sat down. He looked so handsome with the suit that he was
wearing. “Aren’t you hungry? Let’s order!” he just looks very nice that night.
I didn’t want to reject his kindness because I wanted to repay the lost time
that I wasted for being so cold to him for the past 7 years. The dinner was
very delicious. He handed me a bag and in it was my book. He must’ve wanted to
give it to me in a special way because it was nicely wrapped. It was very sweet
of him. “Actually, while the book was in my hand, I tried reading it but it was
written in Malay and I couldn’t understand. Could you explain it to me what it
is about?” I unwrapped it and the synopsis was in Malay so I translated it for
him. “A love-line started to form between two people. At first the girl had
struggle because of her partner. He lost his memories in an accident once. Will
they be able to form the perfect love-line and keep it strong till the end of
time?” My voice trailed off at the end. Somehow I felt that the question was
actually redirecting to the both of us. “Wow, it seems like a very interesting
book just by reading the synopsis, right?” I just nodded. “What’s the title of
the book?” he asked “Close Your Heart. Come to think of it the title seems
strange. What does it mean?” I wondered by myself when suddenly, he spoke. “It means
the girl has to love her partner and then close her heart with him inside of it
so her love for him would be eternal” I was amazed with his words “How did you
come up with that?” I asked “I’m a singer and also a songwriter. I guess my
years spent on writing songs about love made me understand things like this” he
said it with confidence and those few minutes certainly brighten up my day
after a lot of crying. After that talk about the book, I felt like it kind of
gave me some support in making that love-line between us stronger. I figured
that maybe I don’t have to recover his memories from the past because we can
always make new ones.
After that long talk, we
were about to leave when suddenly something dropped from the book. It fell in
front of Minho. He picked it up and suddenly he touched his head as if he was
attacked with a serious headache, a painful one. “Waeyo?” I asked “This… this…”
and suddenly he fainted to the ground. I took a look at the photo and it was a
picture of…. us 7 years ago
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